What is your view of yourself?

Most all of us ponder at one time or another about our past and the choices that we made which have resulted in where we are now in life.  We think about the “what if” I knew then, what I know now, in the realm of wisdom, and could have a “do over”.  What would our life look like? 

My total lack of self-worth, insecurity and feelings of unworthiness in my youth caused me to allow myself to settle for a man that treated me in the most ungodly ways.  In my innermost being I did not believe that I was attractive to anyone else.  Oh, how I praise God that through his grace, mercy and Word, He has shown me my worthiness…simply by being his daughter, his child, his beloved.  If only more would become grounded in His Word in order to realize the extent of love and value that He places on each of us, lives would be changed and better choices made earlier on in life.

Most strive for affirmation from man.  Worth and value depends on being in the right clique. Rejection plunges us to the deepest low.  We strive to impress people that we usually don’t even truly like in the first place.  All for what?  A good feeling?  Acceptance? Validation?  It is all so very temporal in the first place.  People move, jobs change and then we are thrown into a new set of people causing us to be vulnerable again to going though the same emotional torture if we allow them to control our feelings of worthiness.

I have found that life is kinder to me with having a Godly view of myself.  I strive to please my Creator, not the created.  He is the only one that I want to impress.  Yet, He does not demand that I impress Him.  He loved me before I even considered myself lovable.  How awesome is that?

Want to know the results of my seeing myself through God’s eyes?  It is revealed by seeing the man that I am married to.  By allowing myself to see the value that God places on me, I placed a worth on myself that meant I was worthy of a God fearing man that would treat me as God intended.  He is the most loving, considerate, kind, understanding and Godly man that I know.  Yes, I have pondered the “what if” I had known God’s value of me in my youth.  Because I would have loved to have been able to have spent more than just the past 6 years with this beautiful man.  But, I praise and thank God for giving him to me when He did.  I won’t be sad for the years I didn’t have him in my life, just so very thankful for the ones I have and the future ones that He will bless me with. 

How about you?  Do you allow man to be your validating stamp of approval?  Or do you see yourself and worth through our Lord’s eyes?